The Love of A Fam[ily]

This past week we spent with family back home in California.  I was so glad to be back in my home state with the people I love.  We had absolutely perfect weather.  If you’ve ever been to Monterey, California you’ll know the perfect weather I’m talkin about.  Anyways, it was definitely a fun filled week having family come over every day at my Mom’s house.  Got to see a lot of our Aunts and our baby cousin who is so flippin cute. He is such a chunker but I love it.

I also got to spend the week helping my Gma (my Grandma) with dropping her off for surgery and taking her to check-up appointments.  I missed her so much and getting to help with things was just my way of showing gratitude for her helping with everything in my life.

Then on the other hand I spent all my time with my Mom and hubby and Layla and my sister Andrea.  Seriously always the best of times with them.  Being goofy sitting there laughing till our stomachs hurt.  I never ever want to leave my family and its never easy having to say goodbye each time.  I know its not forever but it’ll seem like forever until we’re together again.

This time it was a much more difficult go around with goodbyes.  This time we had to tell our daughter goodbye, well pretty much I’ll see you soon and we love you like crazy don’t you ever forget it.  I have never in my life seen two grown adults look like the worst they’d ever been until then.  I’ll just say I’ve been crying since I left my daughter and haven’t been able to stop.  Leaving my daughter for awhile has been the most painful experience in my life and I hope to never have to do it again.  I know that joining the Army is something great I’m doing for her and our family but this is not a choice made easily.

I’ve been chatting here and there with my Momma since we left last night and I feel like the worst person ever because she tells me my daughter keeps asking for me.  My Mom doesn’t tell me so I feel bad.  She’s just letting me know what’s happening and how L is doing and what she’s been up to.  But it does make me cry every time I hear it and just makes me miss L more and more.

I’m going to try my best to think of L every time a challenge comes along during training.  She’ll be my goal to reach throughout everything.  My little girl will be my amazing prize for getting through it all.  I know that as I knock everything out during this journey it’ll lead me closer to her.  I’ll be counting down the days till I get my baby back.  Its sad that I haven’t even left for Basic yet and I’m already counting down.  I’ll just be glad when I can see her for my Basic Graduation, it’ll mean that I’m that much closer to being home with her and M.  This Christmas will definitely be a good time to celebrate.  I’ll finally be home with my loves.  I’m going to rock through all of this so I can be with them.

I leave this upcoming week for training, so this may be my last post till I either I’m done with training or they let me get on the computer during AIT which comes after Basic training (AIT is my job training I will receive to my specific job aka MOS).  Crossing fingers they let me so I can tell you all the things I’ve endured and learned and overall experience.

Please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers as we make this transition to a dual Military family and to keep my family strong.  I’m off to finish packing and cleaning.

Thank you to my besties As It Seems and The Jack Chronicles for being total sweethearts. I’m going to miss you girls. Thank you to all you wonderful friends of mine for supporting me and my blog :) xoxo to you all.

I’ll post as soon as I can.